QQueen of Hearts

HOW TO - Embrace Your Future

2012-01-30T11:44:00.004-05:00

Dear Badley,

My name is Chrissina and I’m from New Zealand. I’m 19-years-old and I’m kind of lost with what to do with my life. I love fashion and makeup and dressing up, it’s the only thing I feel I love! And on my day off from work I love to read blogs and look at YouTube and Lookbook, especially yours! My question is, can I do this for the rest of my life? I keep changing my mind on what I want to do. I guess I’m just scared but of what? I don’t know? I’m sorry for this but whenever I’m on your blog and stuff I feel like you can help me get over this and tell me where I should go and where I should start. How did you do it? Please get back at me! I will love to hear from you.Thank you for time <3

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It’s funny you should write to me because just this morning I peeled myself off the floor, called my mother and proclaimed my life hopeless.

Welcome to your twenties.

At 22-years-old, I go to bed every night asking myself the same questions you do. Currently, I cringe at the thought of my job being a career, whimper at my bank statement and sleep on a couch (but let’s not get into that). I’ve spent five years in customer service, three years in retail, two summers at an insurance company and served my time as an intern. My life may not exactly be in order but I can assure you this – you’re not alone.

Read full response on Chictopia.

Need advice? Email me.

with love.

badley

You’ve got a warm heart, you’ve got a beautiful brain.

2012-01-28T22:44:00.001-05:00

I call this taking a risk.

Pick it up, pick it all up. And start again. You’ve got a second chance, you could go home. Escape it all. It’s just irrelevant. with love. badley

Dearest Froe,

2012-01-27T14:57:00.000-05:00

We had fun kid. See you in 2-3 years.

with love. badley

MERRY CHRISTMAS!

2011-12-25T10:50:00.000-05:00

(told you I was going to be in a onesie)
Merry Christmas everyone! Sending all my love to you and your loved ones
xx

I get lost inside my head

2011-12-19T15:11:00.004-05:00

Is it true that you always kill the ones you love, but why? Shouldn’t love be simple -- effortless? But it isn’t. It never has been. I read too many books, or maybe I don’t read enough. Have you ever been in love? How do you know? How can you be so sure, to then lose it in the early afternoon -- slipping beneath the floorboards?

My biggest fear isn’t losing you but that one day you’ll find that you’ve forgotten me. I know that you’ll never marry me because I’ll never marry anyone. Does that mean we’re not in love? But I don’t want this to be nothing. I don’t want to wake up one morning, after the storm we’ve created, to forget it all.

Can that happen?

Will it happen?

I want to be under your skin for years. I want you to catch your breath whenever someone says my name. I want you to reach out for me in the dark of night. Remember every detail of our existence. I need this from you because I cannot mourn alone. You cannot burden me with your memories.

I wish you could see me for me. Devour my madness and comfort my sadness. But I could never allow it. What if I were to let you touch my soul? Even for a moment? Then what? This could never last. It can never be forever because in the end, we always kill the ones we love.

I read this book, listened to this song, and cried.
This post was inspired by all three.

with love.
badley

Trend Essentials Winner

2011-12-18T11:52:00.001-05:00

Congratulations to Maryam for winning the Trend Essentials giveaway! Thanks to everyone that entered. If you didn't win this one, don't worry, there's another giveaway in the works. Stay posted!

with love.
badley

This Holiday Season

2011-12-15T16:53:00.003-05:00

For four days straight I will occupy a onesie pajama with fuzzy slippers and a santa hat. I'm going to eat tasty treats until my stomach gives me the middle finger and my ass decides to expand. I'll lie when asked about the last time I took a shower, and permanently reside under the blankets. Naps will also be very binding during this time of year. I'm going to annoy my mother, read a corpus amount of short stories and get drunk off Christmas music. I'll find a way to frolic and build an igloo even if it doesn't snow. I will revert back to a 6-year-old and secretly get antsy Christmas Eve. I'll still hope for a gift bag of stuffed animals and burn my tongue drinking hot chocolate. This holiday season, I'll be the happiest.

(^^ yes, it's Justin Bieber #dontjudgeme)

with love.
badley

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I'm bout to call the paparazzi on myself

2011-12-12T14:52:00.003-05:00

Let's get something straight, I don't get intimidated. I may be an emotional son of a bitch, but I'll be damned if I ever feel threatened. Life is too short and I'm way too young to care. It's moments when integrity is tested that gives me the greatest high. My biggest fear is myself, so how in the world could you ever change that?

(M83 band t-shirt, vintage DIY shorts, American Apparel tights)

with love.

badley

Trend Essentials Giveaway!

2011-12-10T18:20:00.003-05:00

It's that time of year again, when we compile our extensive Christmas list of coveted items for Santa Claus to deliver. This year, instead of waiting for the Jolly Ol' Man to answer your ~~demands~~ wishes, I've teamed up with Trend Essentials to offer a giveaway to one of my readers. Enter below and DON'T forget to INCLUDE your email address.

HOW TO ENTER

1. Like Trend Essentials on Facebook CLICKING HERE or follow them on Twitter CLICKING HERE
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3. Leave a comment here in this post with your email address to contact you if you win!

The giveaway is open to North American readers only and ends Friday, December 16 at 11:59 p.m EST
The winner will be sorted out randomly. Good luck to all of you!

with love.

badley

HOW TO - Embrace Your Own Sense of Style

2011-12-03T12:24:00.003-05:00

Dear Badley,

I’m into fashion and trends and I check out a lot of fashion blogs, I literally live on Chictopia, but the problem is I am not very daring in trying out new trends or putting new pieces together to give a more unique look. I like trends but it’s more important for me to have a strong personal style. To be able to actually wear the unique pieces I buy when I go out thrifting.

I live in Tanzania, in East Africa, and in my country the best clothes and the cheapest are from thrift stores and vendors who just sell clothes on the street. It’s so easy to buy new pieces on the street and I have bought a lot of them -- floral maxis, flowy skirts, belts, you name it -- but I just don't know how to go about putting them together.

Perhaps I'm scared that people will not approve or think I that I'm weird, but that's not the case since I think I've made myself unique/weird enough for people to expect any more peculiarities from the way I present myself. Maybe I need a new self-esteem? I just wanted your opinion and advice on whatever it is you think I should do to be able to embrace my own sense of style. I admire your style a lot and wish that I could get the nerve to be bolder in my own style.

Read my response on Chictopia.

Need advice? Email me.

with love.

badley

You make me feel like home, So I tell you you're mine

2011-12-02T12:04:00.004-05:00

December. How in the world is it December? I'm not prepared to say goodbye to one of the best years and nervous about the next. And don't get me started on my birthday or the fact that it's impossible to find an affordable place in this city. Okay, so I may be experiencing a mini breakdown that's completely irrational but that's not the point.

The point is, why does it feel like this could be the end rather than the beginning?

(Dolce Vita booties, American Apparel chiffon skirt and socks, vintage purse and the scarf was a wonderful gift)
with love. badley

Goodbye Summer/Autumn,

2011-11-30T15:43:00.000-05:00

I plan to hibernate with a Grizzly Bear until we meet again.

Love always, your biggest supporter.

with love.
badley

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Little Fille Winter 2011

2011-11-29T11:26:00.000-05:00

I recently had a three hour date with Mari and Julia.

Ended up going home with these little treats. Thanks again ladies!

with love.

badley

Little Fille Winter 2011 Catalogue

Worn Fashion Journal

2011-11-28T11:44:00.000-05:00

Where Ideas Get Dressed

issue no.13

Vogue may be the fashion bible but WORN is the manuel on fashion and lifestyle. If you're not familiar with the publication, go ahead and read a couple of posts beforehand (Quit Your Day Job is a recent favourite). Just released was issue 13 that went surprisingly well with my morning cup of tea. After opening the cover I was even met with a lovely quote by musician Eugene Hutz, "For me fashion is nothing more than a spontaneous antidepressant."

~~Preach~~ I couldn't have said it any better myself.

Thankfully, this issue features much more than just fashion trends and news. No offence to fashion magazines, but nowadays you can find that kind of information on any website. Instead, it's a breath of fresh air to read something like 'Unbinding Binaries -- Using Clothing to Unlock the Door of Gender Identity.' It's a comfort to hold a magazine that doesn't rely heavily on advertisements or pretty pictures but instead, uses words as the focal point.

And yet, it's not lacking in pretty pictures, 'The Mom Project' is easily a favourite editorial. Not only did I have the urge to call my mother and thank her profusely for the years of influence but I really want to do a similar post. And by similar, I mean copy this exact concept and credit WORN. This is by far the best example of "fashion fades, style is eternal." Not entirely sure if the mom theme is on purpose, since there's also an article entitled 'Everything I know About Fashion (I Learned From My Mother),' either way I do love and appreciate the homage. Side note, the latter article isn't so much about her mother as it is about the state of union and compromise. But that's neither here nor there.

In addition, the article 'Address & Redress -- The story of a brokenhearted dress' is beautifully written and strangely thought-provoking. The central theme is a girl, a broken heart and one stellar dress. The intrigue arises from the author's experience in denying herself the pleasure of wearing a perfectly made garment all because of the memory it posses. Realizing that our clothes hold as much sentimental value and weight is really quite poignant. Do we all experience this? Maybe not in a dress and maybe not due to a broken heart, but haven't we all at one point hung on to an article of clothing because of it's sentimental value? Good or bad?
"As I leave my (now) ex-boyfriend's apartment, it takes everything I have not to chuck the dress in the wood chipper parked not far from his front steps. I imagine running to my bed -- skivvies and all -- a burst of PVC pearls and pipes showering behind me like fireworks from the metal teeth of the machine."

Other articles in this issue include basic at home dyeing techniques, 'Books About Looks,' a history of the notorious lingerie label Mr. Frederick, a superstitious editorial and the evolution of window dressing. This twice yearly publication offers a diverse perspective on arts, culture and life in addition to fashion. It's not widely available but if you can,order a copy and enjoy it on a Sunday afternoon while listening to Janis Joplin. Just a ~~bloody amazing~~ suggestion.

oh, and WORN also puts on hella cute parties with kitty kats.

with love.
badley

The Bad in Each Other

2011-11-14T18:33:00.000-05:00

I'm itching for something new, and I'm not talking about the Opening Ceremony BERNARDETTE platform kind-of-new. Although, I am convinced those shoes would solve all my problems. Or at the very least I would solve my problems wearing a pair. Same difference, right? Anyway, as I was saying, I'm itching for something new. However, I'm not entirely sure what that something is. Job, home, country? They all blend into the same day-to-day activity. Regardless, the itch is there and it's just a matter of time before I get around to scratching it.

On another note, I recently discovered House of Vintage and Public Butter situated in Parkdale. Both are by far the best vintage stores I've found downtown. Wait until you see the vintage blazer I picked up over the weekend! Until then, I'm madly in love with this Mickey Mouse pullover from House of Vintage. Perfect for lazy autumn days.

(Vintage Mickey Mouse pullover, Forever 21 coat, American Apparel Disco Pants, Aldo pumps)

Oh yeah, if you didn't hear, I'm the new Women's Advice Editor for Chictopia's blog Everybody is Ugly (eeek!) If you're looking for advice shoot me an email/leave me a comment and I'll most likely answer.(P.s. advice on cleaning/cooking/men/dating is beyond me so don't even bother asking)

with love.
badley

Elizabeth Barrett Browning

2011-11-08T12:45:00.004-05:00

--Sonnets from the Portuguese

with love.
badley

You want to paint?

2011-11-06T11:30:00.002-05:00

"First of all you must cut off your tongue because your decision takes away from you the right to express yourself with anything but your brush." - Henri Matisse 

I recently signed up for a writing course after feeling overwhelmed by the possibility of falling into yet another rut. What I've learned so far has been enough to shake my insides and by the third class leave me delirious. There's nothing more satisfying than sitting in a classroom with strangers who make you face your inner demons and afterward show you nothing but compassion and understanding. The bravery I witnessed as young men and women shared poems and stories about their lives was inspirational and touching. I couldn't help but be moved to tears, and examine a part of myself that I've been running from.

Writing takes an immense amount of courage. It allows for you to express a reality that isn't always desirable. It opens your heart and mind by draining overwhelming thoughts and feelings. I've always adored writing (never giving it much thought as to whether I was any good or not), and felt like it was my best friend (in some weird metaphorical sense). Yet, when it comes to sharing those thoughts and feelings with other people, I'm the first to flee. The idea of being an open book really freaks me out.

However, recently I felt a deep void with my lack of writing and sharing. Almost a loss of self. It's hard to share a passion when you're so unsure of how it will be received by other people. I guess that's why I have yet to volunteer reading my own stories out loud in class. I guess, that also explains why I've ceased to be intimate on my blog. For God's sake, my own grandmother visits QQueen of Hearts. But, I realize it's a cowardly excuse and one that stumps personal growth.

The above quote is so wonderfully perfect to how I feel. If you want to paint/sing/write/do anything that has to be the only means of communication. So, I suppose, this is my first step toward a journey of discovery. A journey of expression.

When I was seventeen,
My mother said to me
"Don't stop imagining. The day that you do is the day that you die."

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with love.
badley

I don't want to get over you

2011-10-31T14:53:00.009-04:00

Nov. 4th, 2010

You're going to be okay. It won't hurt so bad and you'll eventually move on. You did the right thing by moving forward and it's okay to hurt. There's nothing wrong with you. You are not dumb and you are not selfish. You have goals and ambition. Don't let anyone stand in your way ever again. Take the pain and use it. Strive for better, strive for success; it'll be the best revenge. Believe in yourself and have the confidence to stand alone. No one made you the person you are today. You will be okay and this will only make you a better person. Work harder and stay as strong as the day allows you to be. There's nothing wrong with being alone. No one should sway your decision to settle; never, ever settle. You deserve better, whatever that may mean. You are smart and you can and will do all the things you want to do. Some days may be hard and you may want to give up, but the goal is to never give up. Believe in yourself and no one can ever stop you.

You will be okay.

-- a passage from my journal

Sometimes, it's necessary to read previous passages you've written to yourself. It never ceases to amaze me how much change a year can bring a person, especially myself. I've grown so much since scribbling those thoughts late one night in November. It doesn't matter why I felt the way I did, what matters most is how far I've come. Thankfully, I picked myself up and not only lived the happiest year thus far but became the person I always wanted to be.

with love.
badley

Happy Halloween, loves!

2011-10-31T11:30:00.000-04:00

I'm a wee little mouse.

Have a spook-tacular day!

with love.

badley

| Sock Bun Tutorial |

all things beautiful

2011-10-25T14:54:00.001-04:00

Your honesty was killing me

The monsters in the room were all dancing to the music all around us

A door is always open if it isn't closed

And a plant is said to be dead if it doesn't grow

I'll grow ... I will grow

(American Apparel body suit, H&M beanie, Haley scarf from Scarffaces and Aldo shoes)

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with love.
badley

Cougar Boots

2011-10-24T22:21:00.003-04:00

(American Apparel shirt, shorts and tights, Haley scarf from Scarffaces, Marla boots courtesy of Cougar Boots)

I despise UGGs. Aside from obvious reasons, those boxy bastards are the definition of college. However, try living through a Canadian winter without them. It's hard to avoid the allure of sheepskin when you're balls deep in snow. And unless you want to resemble the Michelin man, UGGs appear to be the only viable option. Luckily, I was contacted by Cougar Boots and took an oath to never slip my feet into those bastards again.

After opening the package, smelling leather and spotting what the website likes to call "Polar Plush Lining," I knew Marla and I would get along just fine this season -- and so far she's been a real sweetheart. Warm, dry AND fashionable through god-awful downpour -- who would've thought such a thing existed? Trust me, it feels incredible to kick the old habit of UGGs. However, it's not January just yet so until I'm trudging through slush, I'm not giving a final verdict.

with love.
badley

UNTITLED

2011-09-28T09:30:00.002-04:00

for whatever we lose (like a you or a me) / it's always ourselves we find in the sea
-e.e. cummings 

gone swimming. be back later 

with love.
badley

Because the night belongs to lovers

2011-09-26T12:25:00.002-04:00

"He wasn't certain whether he was a good or bad person. Whether he was altruistic. Whether he was demonic. But he was certain of one thing. He was an artist.
And for that he would never apologize."

- Just Kids, Patti Smith

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DEAREST #NYFW

2011-09-08T00:13:00.001-04:00

I boycott your stupid ass.

Yeah you, the coveted event of all events. Who needs you anyway? I have Mariah Carey, my cozy apartment and a box full of Oreos stashed in the kitchen cupboard. At any rate, my week is full. Sorry. The days are booked with self-loathing (pity might join but I haven't decided yet) and weekends are strictly for watching paint dry. Oh and luckily, I don't have to walk around in platforms like they're my idea of comfort. So there, how do you like 'dem apples?

(Vintage hat, Urban Outfitters shirt, American Apparel bra and skirt)

But seriously, who isn't excited for New York Fashion Week?! Tell me which designer you can't wait to see! #doitnow

Let's be friends on Facebook and talk about all the craziness on Twitter.

with love.
badley

Jane Birkin

2011-09-07T13:35:00.003-04:00

Be right back, off to butcher my bangs and practice my fiercest sex-kitten gaze.
Might be awhile ...

with love.
zoe

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When I'm Dead is When I'll be Free

2011-09-06T13:00:00.002-04:00

"His face was so much more interesting than any other face I’d ever seen, with extraordinarily sad eyes and a beautiful mouth. He read me his poetry, and it was always a play on words. That was such an unusual trait—to be that romantic and funny."

- Jane Birkin on Serge Gainsbourg in Newsweek

with love.
badley

Petra Collins

2011-08-16T11:57:00.000-04:00

I actually have the meanest girl crush on Petra Collins. The provocative nature of each photo series is bursting with sexuality and captivating with innocence. I would do anything to have my photos taken by this girl. #lust #obsessed

with love.
badley

Foo Fighters 2011

2011-08-11T12:00:00.000-04:00

The teenager girl inside can die happily now.
Fact: I cry every time I listen to In Your Honor.

with love.
badley

It's better than I ever even knew

2011-08-08T19:51:00.003-04:00

You're the reason I smile 85% of the time. Baby, you'll always be my favourite.
xx

(Romper curtesy of MotelRocks and Vintage bowler hat)

with love.
badley

Symphony of Presence

2011-08-04T11:46:00.001-04:00

Naturally, being 13 years apart, my sister was the coolest person I looked up to. She had an abundance of long skirts that I would kidnap to wear as a dress for teatime. The teddy bears always complimented my attire and appreciated the effort. My sister also had endless amounts of hair products that smelt like tropical islands and forbidden fruits. However, she was never happy when I emptied them into a Tupperware container to create a concoction for my dolls to eat. I did some baffling shit as a child and it doesn't surprise me that she wasn't half as amused as I was.

For 10 years I was even convinced that I was going to be an artist just like my sister. It didn't faze me that I couldn't draw a proper stick figure or that my mother's smile lacked enthusiasm at my sketches of 'flowers.' The sketches were more-or-less circles with steams coming out the bottom -- whatever, I was eight! The point is that I've grown up loving and appreciating my sister more and more as the years go by. Tonight will be her first exhibit and I can't express just how proud I am. I may have stopped stealing her clothes and have my own collection of hair products, but I'll never stop looking up to her. Love you Nicole, xx

Symphony of Presence
The Gladstone Hotel

1214 Queen Street West

Opening Reception | Thursday, Aug 4

7 p.m - 10 p.m

___________________________________________

Proceeds from the silent auction will be donated to the Juvenile Diabetes Research Foundation

Hope to see some of you there!

with love.

badley

I’ve been looking for this groove

2011-08-02T21:21:00.003-04:00

It's futile to try and compare yourself to others, and God knows I do it on a daily basis. I spend hours racking my brain on how to be just like that one girl with the wicked tattoos and stellar laugh. Or that one friend that's a feminist and has her shit together. She's always leading conversations with the utmost confidence. Then there's that one blogger, who gets pastels just right. Who even knew that was an envious quality to have? And let's not get started on Tumblr because that's a pity party well before the auto-load begins.

It's pointless and silly but regardless, we all do it. We spend our days sighing over someone else's laugh, wit, intelligence, legs and those damn baby blue eyes that change colour in the light. It's not that we're unhappy with what we have, it's just that we believe that it can be better. However, I've finally realized that I've spend enough time and energy cramming my brain with envy. I will never be able to afford a Phillip Lim 3.1 dress (nor will I ever, ever shell out that kind of cash) and Jeopordy just sucks because I suck at it. So there, I'm over it. I may not have an insane amount of Litas, a whimsical white bedroom or a sparrow tattoo but damn it, I'm just fine the way I am.

(Head-to-toe American Apparel)

with love.
badley

We Own The Sky

2011-08-01T21:01:00.000-04:00

I've been feeling a little unenthused with my appearance. Naturally, trying to fix the problem, I spent a disgusting amount of money on makeup, booked a tattoo consultation, a hair appointment and painted the shit out of my nails. Unfortunately, not only is my confidence still down but my wallet is now crying out in agony.

I know the real problem isn't my appearance and a new MAC colour isn't going to change the situation. However, it's hard to control circumstances and not-so-hard to buy a cute little number for shits and giggles. Maybe I'm tackling too much at once and finding it hard to handle. Maybe I just want to be the best woman I can possibly be. I know I'm built to withstand any storm, in any condition. It's just swallowing the fear and leading blindly that tears me down. Until I figure it out (does anyone?), I'll be searching for heels that make my toes curl with passion. That should help for a bit, right?

(DIY American Apparel t-shirt, DIY denim shorts, Aldo wedges and American Apparel pouch)

with love.
badley

When I was young

2011-07-19T09:02:00.003-04:00

I don't usually dedicate an entire blog post to an email question. However, it's only fitting after receiving several emails asking the exact same thing. Readers aged 13-17 keep asking, "how can I change my style?"

This question baffles me only because those were my golden years. The awkward days when I experimented with everything (including an eyebrow piercing). Eventually, I learnt the importance of a hair straightener, a proper bra and that sweatpants aren't really pants. So what? At the time it was fun dressing for awkward teenage boys. However, I still wasn't a hot commodity but I blame that on the braces from '04 - '06.

The point is that you shouldn't try to improve your style. These are the years you'll look back on and cringe at your self-butchered bangs. So just learn to embrace it, because we've all been there before. Just make sure to surround yourself with friends and family that make you feel like a dime piece when you really look like a penny.

Forget about style and worry about your best friends, what to do this weekend, laughing too much, staying up too late and that one boy and the zillion more to come. Growing up is hard enough without having to worry about the latest Jeffery Campbells. Take a moment to get off the computer, look at yourself in the mirror and smile at your reflection. Style can't change the fact that you're beautiful, so don't let it.

P.s. Thanks to my best friends that have made me feel like a dime piece for the last 10 years

with love.
badley

2011-07-18T10:34:00.000-04:00

I never want summer to end.

with love.
badley

I'd rather live in his world, than live without him in mine

2011-07-16T12:07:00.003-04:00

I was recently sifting through my inbox when I came across a message that I sent to myself a few years back. Don't ask why I do the things I do -- I barely know the answer to that question. Anyway, it was a paragraph that had nuzzled it's way under my skin during that time period. Being such a sucker for beautiful writing, I tend to keep snippets of every moving sentence/paragraph/passage that I encounter. It's stimulating to stumble across these forgotten tokens from time-to-time. This one especially brought a smile to my face.

"We all have the potential to fall in love a thousand times in our lifetime. It’s easy.

But there are certain people you love who do something else; they define how you classify what love is supposed to feel like. These are the most important people in your life, and you’ll meet maybe four or five of these people over the span of 80 years. But there’s still one more tier to all this; there is always one person you love who becomes that definition. It usually happens retrospectively, but it always happens eventually. This is the person who unknowingly sets the template for what you will always love about other people, even if some of those qualities are self-destructive and unreasonable.

You will remember having conversations with this person that never actually happened. You will recall sexual trysts with this person that never technically occurred. This is because the individual who embodies your personal definition of love does not really exist. The person is real, and the feelings are real—but you create the context. And the context is everything.

The person who defines your understanding of love is not inherently different than anyone else, and they’re often just the person you happen to meet the first time you really, really want to love someone. But that person still wins. They win, and you lose. Because for the rest of your life, they will control how you feel about everyone else."

- Killing Yourself to Live: 85% of a True Story, Chuck Klosterman

(Dittany dress courtesy of SuperTrash, Headband courtesy of Little Fille and American Apparel red leather pouch)

with love.

badley

P.S. Thanks to my incredibly talented brother for shooting and editing these pictures! xx

Alexander McQueen Savage Beauty

2011-07-13T18:26:00.001-04:00

While visiting New York City, I finally had the opportunity to mousy on over to the Alexander McQueen 'Savage Beauty' exhibit at the Metropolitan Museum of Art. Unfortunately, photography wasn't allowed inside. Luckily, I snatched up this wonderful book to provide visual eye-candy for everyone. Mind you, nothing compares to seeing the real thing up close and personal but I'll try my very best to explain it. I still suggest that everyone go themselves, especially since it's been extended until August. It moved me in so many ways and is truly one of the best I will ever live to see.

The Alexander McQueen Savage Beauty exhibit wasn't about how "fashion" everything was but something deeper; something much more personal. Not once did it strike me that the pieces were merely garments, something to casually throw on for a dinner party. Not like I attend dinner parties where I can casually throw on a $2, 000 dress but that's neither here nor there. The point is that each one is a work of art, comparable to Van Gogh, holding weight and substance which had the ability to shake your bones.

What stuck out like a sore thumb was the darkness. It was woven into the garments; beaded, sewn and embedded for a lifetime. The wave of emotion would begin as tiny goosebumps on your arms and end at the curling of your toes. However, it wasn't because of his death. No, it was the clothing that would evoke such sentiment. Each one was a window into the tortured soul of McQueen, and coming face to face with it was a terrifying spectacle.

The garments were never lifeless but instead, each mannequin appeared real. Have you ever walked by a store window and had that feeling? Never. The clothes were wearing the plastic casings; not the other way around and that's where the real magic lies. It had you believe in something that wasn't tangible, and allured tales of wonder and beauty that were only known in fairy tales. Each dress, headpiece and shoe were from the imaginations stifled in our adolescent years.

It had the ability to break the child inside.

And yet, the blinding fascination wasn't the clothes themselves but the mystery behind Lee Alexander McQueen. Who was he? No amount of interviews, articles or books could ever answer that question quite like these pieces on display. You can see the sweat, blood, tears but most importantly, the love that went into each one. These collections aren't fashion and maybe not even art.

It's something more.

Even behind the darkness and chaos, McQueen successfully captured beauty and romance. There was pain and suffering but so much warmth and hope. The yearning to see the light amidst the dark. It's hard to summarize something that will continue to linger for decades to come, but it's impossible to deny the genius that was Alexander McQueen.

with love.
badley

New York City

2011-07-11T14:16:00.001-04:00

I'm finally back! I can't even begin to express just how incredible this trip was. I spend my time gawking at Alexander McQueen garments, getting a personal tour of designer collections, meeting with MTV, watching TFC get destroyed in New Jersey and dancing until 3 a.m. to ?uestlove in Brooklyn. There's no way this is my life. Pinching myself everyday is starting to take it's toll on my arm but I can't help it. Thanks to everyone for support and being so patient with posts. I have so much to write this week and can't wait to reply to all of the wonderful emails I've received over the last month.

with love.

badley

Happy Pride Toronto!

2011-07-04T18:54:00.001-04:00

Just a couple of fun gals hitting the town. Sorry about the lack of posts but I'm off to New York City! Hope to spot a few of you while I'm there. P.S. Happy 4th of July! xx

Oh! The Places You'll Go

2011-06-06T10:44:00.002-04:00

Where does a whole month go? And how do I share it with you all in one post? Without knowing it, I decided to take the month of May off to finally grow up. I've been thrown into a new job (an Editor-in-Chief position) and have begun the process of moving into the city. After being featured in a magazine (more on that later), I've been contacted by people in high places and have begun planning a trip that will continue to change my life. Apparently, you can accomplish a lot when you turn the computer off. Who knew?

But I'm back and happier than ever! I've missed every last one of you that reads and supports this blog. Thank you for all the overwhelming amount of emails and love. I promise to reply to each one by the end of the week. Anyway, this was just a quick update and I promise to be more diligent on the updates from here on in.

(Head-to-toe American Apparel, excluding belt and purse)

with love.
badley

Sum Sum Summa

2011-06-02T11:32:00.001-04:00

I'M BACK !
nbd

WORN Fashion Journal Dance Tickets Giveaway!

2011-05-03T07:22:00.001-04:00

I've always had an insane amount of respect for the ladies over at Worn Fashion Journal (read up about them and you'll understand why). So naturally, I'm tres excited to host a giveaway to their epic Fancy Pants Vintage Dance that's taking place this coming weekend. The winner will receive two free tickets to the event and a free copy of Worn's brand new issue. I'll also be in attendance and will be extremely thrilled to meet some of you!

WORN Fashion Journal 

invites you to COVER YOUR BUTT at the

Fancy Pants Vintage Dance

"On Saturday, May 7th, 2011, celebrate the launch of WORN Fashion Journal Issue 12 with a tribute to two-legged tailoring. 

Do you long to lindy in your leggings? Charleston in your churidars? Do you jones to jive in your jodhpurs and burn to boogie in your Oxford bags? Maybe you can’t dress for success – but you can show ’em who wears the pants.

However you interpret trousers, get your best pair on and shake your moneymaker at the Fancy-Pants Vintage Dance.

WHERE AND FOR HOW LONG
TICKETS / PAY $12 AT THE DOOR
ALL TICKETS INCLUDE A FREE COPY OF WORN’S BRAND NEW ISSUE!
EVENT IS LICENSED

(American Apparel high-waist linen pants, Vintage shoes)

HOW TO ENTER

1. Like Worn Fashion Journal on Facebook CLICKING HERE or follow them on Twitter CLICKING HERE
2. Like the QQueen of Hearts on Facebook CLICKING HERE or follow me on Twitter CLICKING HERE
3. Leave a comment here in this post with your email address and full name to contact you if you win!

The giveaway is open only to Toronto, Ontario residents and ends Friday, May 7 at 11:59 p.m EST
The winner will be sorted out randomly. Good luck to all of you and I can't wait to meet the lucky winner!

with love.

badley

You’re the spark on the sun

2011-04-15T00:48:00.000-04:00

If there's one thing I'm good at, it's making plans for the future. I'll make a 5-year plan, a plan for the day and probably a plan for the next hour. Trust me, I've had a solid plan for every year of my life. However, ask me how many of those were actually executed. Zero. Not one single 'big picture' to do list was ever fully completed. I'd even be surprised if one thing was ticked off from the list.

When things get bad, I make a plan. It's my way of mapping a way out of the shit hole I've created for myself. I find a huge comfort in to do lists. They act almost like a security blanket. I enjoy writing out all the things I have to do and thinking with enthusiasm, "there's only 10 things here, that's not even that bad." Meanwhile, one of those things is to "get over life."

For once though, I've hit a road block and, I don't care to make another pointless plan. I have no clue what my future holds. I don't know why I've ended up here and I don't care to figure it out. No, I'm not sure where I'll be in 5 years and I don't want to. Does it scare me shitless? I'm petrified, but the thought of another plan failing has me more scared than winging it.

with love.

badley

Blowfish Baku Booties Giveaway

2011-04-04T17:15:00.002-04:00

When it comes to spring, there's nothing I like more than finally packing away my socks and showing off a fresh pedicure. The wonderful folks over at Blowfish is offering one lucky reader a pair of Baku booties. Make the switch from winter to spring in these adorable wedges. Enter below and DON'T forget to INCLUDE your email address.

(Vintage hat, Forever 21 floral dress, Blowfish Baku booties)

HOW TO ENTER

1. Like Blowfish on Facebook CLICKING HERE or follow them on Twitter CLICKING HERE
2. Like the QQueen of Hearts on Facebook CLICKING HERE or follow me on Twitter CLICKING HERE
3. Leave a comment here in this post with your email address to contact you if you win!

The giveaway is open to everyone and ends Monday, April 11 at 11:59 p.m EST
The winner will be sorted out randomly. Good luck to all of you!

with love.

badley

chicshop.ca Giveaway Winner

2011-03-31T10:53:00.001-04:00

Congratulations to Abbe for winning the chicshop.ca giveaway! Thanks to everyone that entered. Again, if you didn't win this one, don't pout, I have another giveaway in the works. Stay posted, xx.

with love.

badley

ThreadSence SS11 Lookbook

2011-03-30T23:08:00.000-04:00

I'll take one of everything, please.

with love.
badley

You and Me

2011-03-28T15:54:00.001-04:00

Maybe it's the sun shinning or maybe it's this incredible playlist playing in the background, but I can't help but feel on top of the world right now. Nothing has worked out for me and quite frankly, it's falling apart. Yet, I'm so content with life. What's the point in stressing over frivolous things that I barely care about? I have my family, friends and people that support me on a daily basis. So, instead of crawling back into bed and calling it a month, I'm going outside. See you there.

(H&M Sunglasses, American Apparel Unisex Cotton Ottoman Rib Pullover, Garage Jeans, JLo Pumps)

with love.

badley

Big Bun Updo Tutorial

2011-03-28T00:43:00.000-04:00

I can hardly believe how many people have been asking me about this hairstyle! Since I'm getting bombarded by questions, I decided a video tutorial was fitting. However, I didn't realize it could get any worse than the last tutorial I did.

I promise to never say "So, yeah" again in my life and I understand that "more messy" is not grammatically correct. Look, I took ESL (English as a second language) in school, give me a break. I guess I could make a second one, but really? Do I look that productive? I hope you guys enjoy anyway and if you have any questions just email them to me!

No products were used in the making of this film.

with love.

badley

Danny Yirgou,

2011-03-26T15:18:00.001-04:00

I think I'm in love with you.

via | site

with love.

badley

Friday Afternoon Tunes

2011-03-25T18:52:00.000-04:00

with love.
badley

Bedroom Tour Part One

2011-03-25T11:33:00.002-04:00

I decided to do something different for this post and give you all a little peak into my personal space. I was inspired by The Coveteur and How I Met Your Style. Of course my collection of gems, clothing and shoes aren't nearly as desirable as Olivia Lo's of I've Got A Lust For Life or Katherine Power's of Who What Wear but nonetheless, it's my own.

Anyway, I've started to realize I own an insane amount of things. From hoarding journals like nobodies business to an ever-growing scarf collection, things can get a wee bit cluttered at times. Well, I hope you guys enjoy and the second part of my bedroom tour will include favorite outfits and more shoes! So stay posted.

In case you're wondering, this little fellow is my 11-year-old rabbit named Bun Buns.

He lives in my bedroom with me and we're mad for one another.

with love.
badley

chicshop.ca Giveaway

2011-03-23T18:12:00.003-04:00

Let's be real, we all want a new wardrobe this spring season (whenever it decides to roll around). Luckily, the amazing people at chicshop.ca is offering to get one reader started with a $100 gift certificate to be used at their online boutique.

(Vintage sweater courtesy of chicshop.ca)

HOW TO ENTER

1. Like chicshop.ca on Facebook CLICKING HERE or follow them on Twitter CLICKING HERE
2. Like the QQueen of Hearts on Facebook CLICKING HERE or follow my blog on Bloglovin' CLICKING HERE
3. Leave a comment here in this post with your email address to contact you if you win!

The giveaway is open to everyone and ends Wednesday, March 30 at 11:59 p.m EST
The winner will be sorted out randomly. Good luck to all of you!

with love.

badley

Monday Melodies

2011-03-21T01:42:00.003-04:00

"Everything falls apart at the exact same time that it all comes together perfectly for the next step" - Wooden Heart, Listener

Curly Hair Video Tutorial

2011-03-12T23:02:00.002-05:00

You asked and I'm finally answering. I'm constantly getting emails/comments about what my hair routine is like and what kind of products I use. So here it is, me in all my awkward glory. There's no paid product placement -- I just really like Herbal Essences. I also fully realize I have a sing-song voice and can sound like I'm asking a questions instead of making a statement. Oh, and yes, I talk with my hands ... a lot. I swear off camera I'm not this big of a nerd.

Products used in the making of this film:
(Herbal Essences Set Me Up Mousse, Herbal Essences Hydralicious Shampoo and Conditioner and Garnier Fructis Sleek and Shine Hair Serum)

with love.
badley

To Paris Fashion Week, with love

2011-03-07T12:00:00.000-05:00

VIVIENNE WESTWOOD FALL 2011 COLLECTION 

Leave it to Vivienne Westwood to churn out a wonderfully, superb Fall 2011 Collection that doesn't just speak to your inner woman but little girl too. The gold glitter and sparkling runway (not to mention the glitz go-go boots) had me squealing with delight. Yet, my favorite part was the makeup donned on each model. It gave an air of strength and power which was only then fortified by the collection's designs. Love, love, love!

CELINE FALL 2011 COLLECTION

I'm not usually a big fan of runway shows that aren't outlandish. The whole point of fashion is being dramatic. However, the moment I peeked the Celine Fall 2011 Collection I knew it was time to change my train of thought. The tailored jackets were dramatic and elegant, while each outfit was polished and sleeked to perfection. The Celine Fall 2011 Collection proved that you don't need dramatics to make a statement -- amen to that.

VIKTOR & ROLF FALL 2011 COLLECTION

I first fell in love with Viktor & Rolf during the SS 2010 Collection but was sorely disappointed at the SS 2011 line. Luckily, after browsing the Fall 2011 Collection, I now know that creative directors Viktor Horsting and Rolf Snoeren were just testing my loyalty. The strength, confidence and boldness that the designs create are truly awe-inspiring. If you are what you wear, I would buy each piece featured on the runway (in two different colors nonetheless).

DOLCE & GABBANA FALL 2011 COLLECTION

As I was browsing through the Dolce & Gabbana Fall 2011 Collection, this song just happened to be playing on my computer. Somehow, it fits the theme perfectly. The whole androgynous, don't-give-a-f--- swagger that oozes from this collection is perfection. I really feel like I should adopt the tomboy look and develop a mean pimp limp. P.s I'm well aware this collection was shown in Milan and not Paris but it was too awesome to leave out.

with love.

badley

via (1) | via (2)

Caitlin Worthington,

2011-03-05T13:02:00.001-05:00

you capture a world of inspiration -- thank you.

Perfect Saturday? Green tea, photography and my pajamas. I think I've successfully made a career out of being lazy. Lately, I've also been receiving a great deal of questions about what kind of music I listen to. Since that subject is vast and never ending, if you guys would like I can start a section on music. Just let me know! xx

Come away with me and I'll never stop loving you

2011-03-04T18:36:00.001-05:00

I tend to make it my business to never ask questions that I don't want to know the answers to.

(Hat, H&M. Floral skirt, Forever 21. Denim shorts, DIY Vintage)

On an unrelated note, the Christian Dior Fall 2011 Collection was unveiled today. Even with the controversy surrounding John Galliano, it's hard to deny the talented designs. Here's a great review on the runway show by Imogen Fox at the guardian.co.uk and a great opinion piece about Galliano by Haley Mlotek at Worn Fashion Journal. Thoughts?

with love.

badley

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Links à la Mode

2011-03-03T11:20:00.004-05:00

After getting an overwhelming amount of comments on my post "Overcoming Blog Insecurities," I decided to submit it to the Independent Fashion Bloggers Links à la Mode. Thanks so much to everyone that took the time to read and leave their opinions. Reading all your experiences was comforting and incredible. I'm extremely grateful for this community, xx.

MAKING IT YOUR OWN

Edited by WIT & Whimsy
One of the best parts about fashion is that it is translated differently by everyone. It’s infused in everything we do in many respects and this week’s Links a la Mode highlight that whether your style is haute couture or vintage, trendy or thirfted, style is very much ownable and deeply personal. I’m thrilled to have this be my inaugural editing of the IFB Links a la Mode, looking forward to seeing everyone’s posts throughout the year!

LINKS À LA MODE: MARCH 3RD

A La Modest: Flicks Inflict Fashion II
Aqui: Street Polish
Blah Blah Becky: Snapshots from London Fashion Week
Chappals vs. Stilettos: Lace Love
Chi Chi Bella: African Vibes
Color Me Blue: DIY: What to do with your Old Leather Boots
Dessert or Disaster: Desert Inspired Looks for Spring
Dress with Courage: Thrifting 101: How to Thrift for Vintage
Fumiko Kawa: Artistic Metal Detailing
Her Catwalk: A (WWD) Magic Show
Holier than Now: A Short Story: Spring's New Essential (hint - it's not shorts!)
Independent Fashion Bloggers: Video: Getting into the business side of blogging
Make the World a Prettier Place: Are Pastels the New Color for Fall?
QQueen of Hearts: Overcoming Blog Insecurites
Soulful Soles: Style Taylor Made: Marie Claire’s Taylor Tomasi Hill Sporting Spring 2011 Trends
The Girl Who Stole the Eiffel Tower: How to Make Failed Outfit Pictures Work (Photoshop Tutorial)
The New Professional: Recap: My Year of Not Shopping
Try it On Me: Vanilla Frappacino Meets Fashion
Vanity Press: Starlets & Muscians of Dolce & Gabbana
What to Wear Where: The Fascinator Kate Midddleton
WIT & Whimsy: Color Pops: Infusing unexpected color into your daily look

Fox House Giveaway Winner

2011-03-02T12:53:00.000-05:00

Congratulations to Maylin for winning the Fox House giveaway! Thanks to everyone that entered (I'm still overwhelmed by the number of entries). If you didn't win this one, don't pout, I have another giveaway in the works. Stay posted, xx.

with love.

badley

The Dog Days Are Over

2011-03-01T23:21:00.001-05:00

I love the transition from winter to spring. Waking up to a ray of sunshine beaming on your face may be annoying but also invigorating. Lately, I'm in constant awe that a year has passed by! Is it weird to feel nostalgic about the new year, three months into it? The beginning of a new season always has me yearning for new beginnings in my life.

It's amazing to look back at last year's situations and smile at how ridiculous they are today. Or even five years ago; Where were you? What were you stressing over? Does it still matter? Thank God life moves on. So, let's celebrate the beginning of March by blaring Florence And The Machine and celebrate the next stages in our lives.

(Hair bow, American Apparel. Pink bustier, H&M. Acid wash shorts, Vintage DIY)

with love.
badley

Holland, 1945

2011-02-28T18:40:00.000-05:00

From now on, I'm pretending that it's spring weather and I've decided to dress accordingly so (well, at least while I'm indoors). It's the only way to stop fighting back the urge to scream every time I see a snowflake falling from the sky. I know it's February and I've lived in this country long enough to expect this sort of thing from Mother Nature, but come on! Enough is enough already. Yet, five months from now, I'm fully aware that I'll be complaining about the heat and humidity.

I'm just a mess.

I was recently told to download and listen to Neutral Milk Hotel. I don't know what I'm more ashamed about; the fact that this is the first I'm hearing this incredible tune or the fact that all my (ex)boyfriend's have better music tastes than me.
It's a little combination of both.

with love.
badley p.s TOMORROW is the LAST day to enter the FOX HOUSE GIVEAWAY

Aoi Kotsuhiroi 'Exotic Regrets' Shoe Collection

2011-02-28T01:14:00.002-05:00

Shoe Porn (5)

At a staggering 7.7 inches, I warn you that the Aoi Kotsuhiroi 'Exotic Regrets' Shoe Collection isn't for the fainthearted. These outrageous dagger-heeled pumps can only be categorized under 'hardcore shoe porn.' While it's undoubtedly hard to look away, it's also painful to imagine squeezing your little toes into something resembling death.

However, don't get me wrong, I'd gladly take the challenge.

The French jewelry designer unveiled the new collection Exotic Regrets and the Dawn Ritual 'feet objects.' According to TrendLand, the 'feet objects' are "made of urushi lacquered horns, urushi lacquered cherry tree and leather." God only knows how you get these one-of-a-kind pumps onto your feet, stand AND walk around in them. Any ideas?

with love.
badley via | site

Dearest Ann He,

2011-02-26T12:46:00.000-05:00

Your photography gives me chills.

Officially ready for spring, lace, tulle and floral. Instead of gazing out the window and watching another God awful snowfall, I'm spending my Saturday lost in Ann He's photography. Did I mention I'm belting out this song, while wearing this skirt? It may be early signs of insanity but I haven't quite decided yet.

with love.
badley

Overcoming Blog Insecurites

2011-02-25T16:19:00.008-05:00

I always feel shy when mentioning my blog and what I do in my spare time. Saying you take pictures of yourself and post them on the internet never quite sounds right. After sharing this with a couple of guy friends, they only had one question to ask me -- "Are you getting into the porn industry?" Bless their little hearts, but no.

However, I'm also shy to confess just how much I love fashion. I grew up in a city with no emphasis on the subject and rolling out of bed to attend class was perfectly acceptable. Don't get me wrong, I'm thankful for that kind of acceptance and I've been guilty of wearing bedroom slippers to class (more than once). Yet because there's no emphasis, I grew up believing that fashion was more superficial than holding any sort of importance.

When I started this blog, I refused to admit that it was about fashion or style. Yet, after receiving comments and emails from people saying that they like my "fashion" blog, I knew it was pointless to deny it any longer. But somehow, I still felt that by expressing my passion it would only diminish or shadow my other qualities. And appearing one-dimensional wasn't something I was striving for.

It wasn't until a recent date that I started to ponder my blogging insecurities. During dinner the topic of fashion came up (not by me) and I was told that I'd enjoy something solely because I love fashion. All of a sudden my defenses went up. I expressed that fashion isn't the only thing I like and that I barely enjoy it. Then he asked me why I post pictures online of myself? Isn't it because I love fashion? If not, then is it because I'm vain?

Good point (and it's probably a combination of both).

I guess it's time to just give in to the world of fashion blogging and stop caring about what people in my personal life will think. Yes, I get dressed up to take pictures of myself with my camera's self-timer function. And yes, I know more about fashion than how to cook a proper dinner. Surprisingly, it's been one of the best decisions I've made in my life. So there.

with love.

badley

The Alexander McQueen Exhibition

2011-02-25T02:03:00.003-05:00

The Alexander McQueen Exhibition will be showcased at the Metropolitan Museum of Art in New York City from May 4 to July 31, 2011. There's not a whole lot I wouldn't give up in order to see more than 100 of McQueen's pieces of work in person. Unlike Ariel in the Little Mermaid, I'd rather give up my voice for fashion than a man. But maybe that's just me?

with love.

badley

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Can you lie next to her and give her your heart?

2011-02-24T16:30:00.004-05:00

I laid my eyes upon this vintage sweater just when I was ready to denounce winter. Thanks so much to chicshop.ca for sending it my way! I was a little skeptical at first, since it's a large, but luckily it fits perfectly. Well, perfect in a monstrous-kind-of-way. Anyway, I was too excited to style it, I just threw it over top of what I was wearing the moment it arrived in the mail. I'll do a proper outfit post later this weekend. Until then, red lipstick and thigh highs will just have to do.

(Vintage Helen Sweater, chicshop.ca. Thigh high socks, American Apparel)

Now, let's melt away while listening to Mumford and Sons.
This song is one of those tunes I wish a boy would sing to me. Just saying.

with love.

badley

Favorites from New York Fashion Week 2011

2011-02-18T12:10:00.110-05:00

It's hard to believe how fast fashion week comes and goes, and New York's ready-to-wear collections were no exception this year. Below are just a few of my favorites, featuring Anna Sui and L.A.M.B. What were some of your must-have, love-of-your-life collections that were featured on the runway last week?

Anna Sui is everything I'd love to one day embody. The transition from Mod to Hippie featured in the Fall 2011 Collection is just downright stunning. It's hard to not gawk between the patterns, detailing, bold coloring and folklore nostalgia that's featured in this years line. I wholeheartedly appreciate the fun and excitement that Sui instills in each piece.

Marchesa will always make me weak in the knees. It's hard to overlook the insane amount of detail that Georgina Chapman and Keren Craig put into each collection. However, the Fall 2011 Collection doesn't grip me quite like last year's ready-to-wear line. I wanted to rob a bank in 2010, while this year I'd rather marry rich to own one of the pieces. But don't get me wrong -- between the lace, tulle and Louboutin Mary Janes, I do have an insane amount of love and appreciation.

OH MY GOD, bless your fashionable soul Isaac Mizrahi! The fall 2011 collection gave me butterflies and even had my heart skipping a few beats. The dresses, bows, silhouettes, palette of colors in combination with poodles and confections entailed for a superb runway show. There's nothing more that I can say about the collection -- except that I just may try the powder puff hairstyle. Yes? No? Any thoughts?

I was never much of a fan of L.A.M.B before but after viewing the Fall 2011 Collection, I'm contemplating selling my soul to own a piece. Where to even begin! Gwen Stefani divided the show into six groups which featured different looks. From military, menswear, plaid to seventies-clad models, it's difficult to not get lost in the collection's variety. The fact that Stefani doesn't stay locked down to one style is just the cherry-on-top. I revoke my earlier statement of skipping colors this year; in fact, the bolder the better!

with love.
badley

via | collages by me

These Hands Weren't Meant For Us

2011-02-17T18:08:00.005-05:00

Today's positive temperatures gave me false hope that spring is right around the corner. I don't want to complain but I'm really over having to triple up on each piece of clothing I wear out. My legs feel like sausages when squeezed into nylons, tights and jeans. NYLONS, TIGHTS and JEANS! I'm positive that has to be detrimental to leg circulation.

I've also decided that this year for summer I'm not hoarding color into my closet. Instead, I'm sticking to pastels and creams -- boring as shit but practical as hell. Thus entering this 3-D mesh number from American Apparel. It reminds me of lunch meat bunched up and sewn on to netting, but I'd like to think that's what makes it appealing. It's different, unconventional and most importantly, it speaks to my stomach. What more can a girl ask for?

(3-D flower mesh jumper, American Apparel. Black Maxi, unknown. Black wedges, Aldo)

with love.

badley

FOX HOUSE Giveaway

2011-02-16T16:07:00.012-05:00

Since we're all waiting with baited breath for the winter season to piss off, I've teamed up with Fox House to host a giveaway that's perfect for spring. Enter to win this vintage knit sweater and get cozy wearing the soft fabric.

(Vintage knit sweater, Fox House. Velvet long sleeve mini dress, American Apparel. Leather boots, Vintage)

HOW TO ENTER

1. Like Fox House on Facebook CLICKING HERE or follow them on Twitter CLICKING HERE
2. Like the QQueen of Hearts on Facebook CLICKING HERE or follow my blog on Bloglovin' CLICKING HERE
3. Leave a comment here in this post with your email address to contact you if you win!

The giveaway is open to everyone and ends Tuesday, March 2 at 11:59 p.m EST
The winner will be sorted out randomly. Good luck to all of you!

with love.

badley

Happy Valentine's Day!

2011-02-14T13:48:00.003-05:00

Valentine

My heart has made its mind up 

And I'm afraid it's you. 

Whatever you've got lined up, 

My heart has made its mind up

And if you can't be signed up 

This year, next year will do. 

My heart has made its mind up 

And I'm afraid it's you. 

Wendy Cope

(White bow and lace shirt, American Apparel. High-waist mini skirt, H&M)

Enjoy your love day everyone. I'm off to visit a terribly cute boy -- funny how these things work out.
xo, Zoe

Midnight Rambles

2011-02-07T01:31:00.007-05:00

This spring I'm going to fall in love, even if it's with a new ice cream flavor. I'm going to take long drives and even longer walks. I want to smell like lavender and rain -- possibly the worst combination ever. I'm going to read more poems and pretend like I understand half of the big words. Actually, I'm going to learn each big word, maybe two of them a day. I'm going to walk around with a camera and never miss a perfect shot, even if that means buying disposables. I want to rock out every weekend and scream with strangers. I'll finally get the tattoo I've wanted for six years and buy a pair of combat boots. I won't stop acting like a dork and I promise I'll start taking more risks.

Yeah, I'm finally ready for spring.

(via | we heart it, vintage is the new black and fashion fever)

with love.
badley

Potions For Foxes

2011-02-05T19:58:00.014-05:00

Anonymous --

You're right, I like to complain and I'm overly whiny. I turn mole hills into mountains and more often than not I bitch about everything. Good thing the people in my life don't take me seriously and you shouldn't either.

Faux Fur Hat, H&M, Diso Pants & Unisex Cotton Ottoman Rib Pullover, American Apparel

with love.

badley

Little Fille Spring/Summer 2011 Collection

2011-02-02T16:09:00.005-05:00

Ah, I've been so busy lately that I nearly forgot to share the exciting news with you all. I was recently contacted by Mari Santos to model for the Little Fille Spring/Summer 2011 Collection. After re-reading the email 50 times and squealing to anyone that would pick up the phone, I finally calmed down enough to fall in love with the collection.

I had so much fun wearing each piece and working with everyone. Julia Monson is the biggest sweetheart ever and I couldn't think of anyone better to have a cupcake fight with! Thanks again Mari for asking me to do this. Below is just a little sneak peak of the collection, there are 30 new styles and each one will be available at Topshop soon.

Credits
Little Fille SS11 Collection
Models: Julia Monson and I
Photographer: Joseph EstacionMakeup Artist: Anne Borja
Stylist/Designer: Mari Santos

with love.
badley

A Quiet Place to Hide

2011-02-01T05:36:00.007-05:00

It can be extremely hard to follow your dreams, especially when life throws up road blocks and dead ends. The path to success always seems winding, under construction or just downright never-ending. People along the way will provide faulty directions, crazy analogies and will often be of no help whatsoever. There's times when you'll run out of gas, cry at the side of the road and believe that giving up is your only option.

But it's not.

Regularly, I find myself at that same side of the road more times than I'd like to admit to; we've all been there before. Yet, it doesn't matter how many times we pull over, just as long as at some point we continue to move forward. They'll be trying hours and even harder days. The course may change several times but please make sure it ends exactly where you want it to. And above all, just believe in yourself. You can and will conquer mountains, mud slides, slippery roads and whatever else life decides to throw your way.

You are destined for greater things.

Ryan Cape, Dolce Vita from Doll Haus CO., Velvet Mini Dress, American Apparel

with love. badley

Whoever you are,

2011-01-31T22:30:00.003-05:00

you make me insanely happy.

Please, never stop taking photographs.

with love.
badley

Desolate

2011-01-24T14:38:00.002-05:00

Sometimes I forget to breathe,

and sometimes I forget to scream.

I'm afraid of a lot of things,

and baby, you're one of them.

Lackluster Coma

2011-01-10T22:13:00.004-05:00

There are days that tend to blend into weeks and weeks that fuse with months; until finally, I can't remember which came first. Wasn't November yesterday and the first of December tomorrow? Forgive me, I haven't rambled in quite some time and I fear I've lost my mind. There's no drive and my ambitions have finally run dry; the indifference is unbearable and yet, there's comfort in not caring.

Inspiration may be endless, living in the trees and traveling with the wind, but it has stopped knocking at my door. I'm buying a new book a day, devouring poetry and inhaling melodies, but nothing seems to help. Not one sentence, stance or beat helps to jerk me out of this lackluster comma.

with love.
badley

via | collage by me

Frosty the snowman was a jolly happy soul

2010-12-29T11:58:00.005-05:00

I can't believe it's been weeks since my last entry, and now after such a long period, I don't know where to begin. Life unexpectedly became hectic; the holidays meant family events and an insane work schedule. My internship with the Gladstone came to an end, which meant training and wrapping up any lose ends, and let's not forget my 21st birthday. All-in-all, I was just too darn tired to do much of anything this month.

However, I can still wish you all a happy holiday! I hope Santa was especially kind to everyone and that you're all wonderfully full from Christmas dinner and leftovers. I can still barely breathe from the whole ordeal, my mom can be a little intense for our family dinner. We may not have turkey but the lady does make four different types of meat.

Admittedly, it's depressing growing up and celebrating Christmas. I remember not being able to sleep on Christmas Eve, sneaking down at 4 a.m to count how many gifts I was receiving and getting upset if my mom bought the wrong cookies for Santa. I loved listening to the Chipmunks Christmas on vinyl, having the whole house smell of pine and viciously tearing apart wrapping paper. My favorite gift that always sticks out in my mind as a kid is a big bag filled with stuffed animals -- at least I appreciated the little things.

Now I'd rather sleep in until noon and have my niece and nephew decorate the tree. Don't get me wrong, I'm not a Grinch but 4 a.m lost it's magic years ago. Regardless of growing up, Christmas will always hold a certain type of magic. I guess it's those memories that will always keep that spark alive or maybe it's just spending time with loved ones. Whatever the reason and whatever the age, here's hoping you had a remarkable holiday!

with love.

badley

I Still Believe In Anchors

2010-12-02T10:23:00.036-05:00

Life can often get the best of us. If we're not worrying about school, then it's work. When our relationships aren't stressful, then our appearance is hogging all the attention; worse is not having a relationship, then we just end up wallowing in self-pity. It's a vicious day-to-day cycle that I've decided to give up on by simply saying Fuck It (sorry mom, I know you'd rather me not swear but it's necessary this one time).

"At this very moment, there are people saying Fuck It and: 

- finally going over to the boy/girl they fancy and telling them how they feel 

- walking out of jobs they've had enough of to travel the world 

- finally speaking their mind to a friend or family member 

- eating a whole chocolate cake 

- giving another driver the finger, then speeding away 

- lying on the grass, just staring at the sky for hours 

This is freedom. Finally doing what you really want. Saying Fuck It to the world and what people think of you and going for it. This is the side of Fuck It when you need an accompanying rock soundtrack. This is the stuff of those old Levi's ads: riding into an office on a motorbike, picking up the girl and riding off into the sunset. 

So rev your engines and ride along with me." - Fuck It. The Ultimate Spiritual Way, John C. Parkin

with love.
badley

Wretched World

2010-11-28T17:20:00.006-05:00

I haven't quite been myself lately, that's why I've taken a two week break from blogging. And after staring at this post for nearly an hour, it seems I'm still suffering from mental exhaustion. So, instead of trying to write something witty or creative I'll leave you with this incredible song by Listener. Dan is always so sweaty and twitchy when performing but the lyrics are so incredibly haunting and beautiful that you can't help but be enticed by them. I hope you enjoy!

with love.
badley

I'm still alive

2010-11-24T14:36:00.001-05:00

Just hiding out in my room.

I'll be back to regular posts this Friday. Until then, I miss you all.

with love.

badley

She Thinks She's Something In This World

2010-11-14T09:18:00.002-05:00

I'm realizing more and more each day that it's the little things in life that truly matter. Whether it's a simple conversation between friends or a much-needed hug, it's those small moments that have the ability to transform your entire day. Lately, I've been receiving an overwhelming amount of "thank you" emails and messages. Which is always surprising; I can barely take myself serious, much less understand how my name and inspiration are being used in the same sentence.

Regardless of my confusion, these small tokens I receive are the most rewarding thing I get out of my life. Call it a dull and boring life, but you have no clue what each one means to me. To know that I'm reaching people on a personal level or the fact that someone actually enjoys what I have to say, well shit, I wouldn't trade that for anything. I guess this is why I continue to write, not for internet fame or popularity, but to impose a small impact. And hey, if I inspire someone along the way then how can I not feel like I'm doing something right?

with love.

badley

Lame Statements to Reassure Ourselves With

2010-11-11T08:19:00.006-05:00

Some days I want nothing more than to just give up. I find that I work too hard yet, deep down, I know I'm not working hard enough. I'm waking up at 5 a.m. just to ramble in a journal, and some nights, I'm falling asleep at 5 a.m. after rambling in a journal. Blogs have me confused because every girl is young and happily indulging in fashion. I'm young and barely have two pennies to rub together, but I guess I'm being too personal -- this is after all a fashion blog.

For the first time, in a long time, I had a late night conversation with someone paddling along in the same boat as I. It feels incredible to know that I'm not alone and even though we're not doing it together, it's a comfort that I needed. So here's to all of you that feel helplessly lost, you're not alone and one day it will get better. It may sound simple and corny but sometimes that's all we need, lame statements to reassure ourselves with.

with love.
badley

The Perks of Being a Wallflower

2010-11-09T18:35:00.004-05:00

"I think that if I ever have kids, and they are upset, I won't tell them that people are starving in China or anything like that because it wouldn't change the fact that they were upset. And even if somebody else has it much worse, that doesn't really change the fact that you have what you have."

"So, this is my life. And I want you to know that I am both happy and sad and I'm still trying to figure out how that could be."

with love.
badley

QQueen Of Hearts Answered

2010-11-01T17:34:00.010-04:00

I'd love to know what your fashion fears have been, like trends you felt you couldn't "pull off."
Since I've started blogging and getting into fashion, my fashion fears have actually decreased. A year ago I would've never worn big bows, geek glasses or harem pants. I'm learning to be open with fashion, give it a twist and try to make it work -- so far it's helping.

Is that your natural hair color? If not what color is it that you've dyed it?
No, unfortunately it isn't. I was playing around with Photoshop and ended up with that wicked color. However, I do eventually want to get my hair dyed that exact color, so I'll keep everyone posted!

What career field are you interested in? What do you want to be when you "grow up?"
Writing for anything or anyone; I don't particularly care if it's for a blog, magazine or writing the Great American novel. Just as long as I'm making a career out of something I'm passionate about, then it hardly matters to me.

Why are you so awesome?!
No way! I'm just a typical girl trying to figure out what to do with my life, but I will take the compliment anyway -- Thanks!

What happened with you and your boyfriend? Why did you break up and do you want a new one?
Sometimes things just don't work out the way you want them to, and you can go through the whys, the what ifs and the what nots but it doesn't really change anything. So, instead of beating the subject dead, we'll stick to the simple answer that we parted ways because of irreconcilable differences. And no, I'm not on the prowl for a new one.

How would you describe your style?
All over the place.

Where is your favorite places to shop?
This question is a little tricky because since I've started blogging, I haven't held a paying job (I've been in school and interning the summer and fall months). So, because of this, shopping for clothes is virtually out of the question. The shops I used to swoon over, I could now care less about. I've basically taken to hoarding my families closets and so far, they've been my favorite spots to find outfits.

How did you get such a cool, witty personality?
I'm sure that's up for interpretation, haha. I'm just the combined efforts of friends and family, but thanks for being such a sweetheart!

One of your best features is your hair, would you ever do anything crazy like chop it all off?
If you had asked me this question three years ago I would jumped all over the idea, I was practically yearning for a pixie cut back then. However, now all I want is for my hair to be grazing my hips, even if it will be impossible to take care of.

Where do you find those adorable scarves?
My mom and grandma! They both have an extensive collection of scarves in a variety of colors and patterns. I've taken it upon myself to move each one into my room and adopt them into my hair, it's a sneaky job but someone has to do it.

I don't know you at all but I would really like to get to know you. You seem cool, random and fun to be around.
I'm not sure if I'm cool but random is a definite. I'm currently soaking gummy bears in vodka hoping they'll swell into yummy shots. You can interpret that however you'd like.

Do you have a favorite singer and do you have a favorite song to listen to when you're getting ready to go out?
Oh my god, my taste in music is all over the place and I don't think I'll ever have one favorite singer or band. I wish I could zip my entire iTunes library and post it on here because it's near impossible to narrow it down to an all-time favorite.

As far as music for getting ready, I blast anything from the Yeah Yeah Yeahs, A Wilhelm Scream, Rage Against The Machine, Eminem, Dragonette, NOFX, Kanye West, Santogold etc. (Click on the artist for favorite song)

Your hair is fabulous and I love your makeup. Can you tell us more about that?
For makeup I use Rimmel Natural Bronzer in Sun Dance, Revlon Color Stay Liquid Liner and L'Oreal Paris Voluminous Building Mascara. As for my hair, that's so extensive it needed a seperate post, which you can read all about here.

How do you afford all of your clothes?
I don't, haha. Before moving I was working a part-time job during school and for the summer I had a full-time job and worked part-time on the weekends. The majority of my money went to saving for school and the rest went to clothes. However, after moving I decided to stick to school and ever since being done in April I've been interning. So, I've really only made a handful of purchases in the last year, the rest is thanks to my loving family.

What would be your dream job?
If I could make a living as a novelist I'd do it in a heartbeat. I'd move into a cabin out in the woods with a fireplace, maple furnishing, open windows and transfer all of my insanity onto pieces of paper. There's nothing more appealing to me than going stir crazy and making money for it.

However, since there's really no future in that job, except turning into a cat lady, then I guess my dream job would either be running my own company or writing for a fashion magazine.

Do you have a style/fashion icon?
Ma momma.

Who/what inspires you in fashion choices? For example music, editorials, street style, fashion blogs etc.?
I'm constantly inspired by fashion editorials but they hardly sway my fashion choices; instead, my top three inspirational spots are fashion blogs, music and street style. The majority of the time my favorite fashion blogs are already street-inspired. I love people that are unique, creative and have a sort of swag to their personality that comes across in their style -- that shit is addictive and inspiring. As for music, I'm only inspired by punks, rockers and grunge for their fashion style. If I could pull off that careless, "don't give a fuck" attitude in my clothing then I'd be all over it.

Did you design your own blog?
Sure did! It only took several months and reading an abundance of forums to get help.

What era would you wish you could live in?
Victorian for the fashion, Renaissance for the art and the 90s for the music.

If you were to ever work for a magazine as an Editor which one would it be and why?
Dazed and Confused Magazine! I love the substance inside of that magazine; it isn't one-sided, superficial or high-and-mighty. The inspiration that seeps off each page ranges from fashion to literature and is superbly written.

Does music influence your style?
Not as much as I'd like it to but it definitely helps.

What hair products do you use when it's curly?
Anything I can get my hands on. However, what tends to work best is the extra-hold Herbal Essences Mousse, which I lather on when my hair is wet and Garnier Fructis Sleek & Shine anti-frizz serum for when it's dry.

Have you gotten a relaxer before?
Only for the baby hairs in the front but I haven't done it in several years. It's ridiculous how harsh and harmful that stuff is for your hair, so I'm trying to avoid it for as long as possible.

What kind of digital camera do you have?
I've been borrowing my brother's Canon EOS Rebel T1i ever since my camera died.

What ethnicity are you and do you know Shannon Boodram?
I was born in Guyana, South America and moved to Canada when I was 6-years-old, and of course I know Shannon, who doesn't know Shannon? So, it's safe to say that I have no clue who Shannon Boodram is.

Do you relate with one side of your race more than the another?
No.

What made you want to go to school for Journalism?
I wanted to get into a program that explored writing, and since I suck at school and felt that I would be miserable in University, I explored my options for college. Journalism was really the only option for me, it wasn't because I wanted to write ground-breaking news articles, it was so I could continue writing.

Where did you get that top in the the Facebook fan page day post?
Sirens.

What kind of guys do you like?
Guys that are funny, don't give a shit, have fun and treat me the same way I treat them. Don't baby me, don't pamper me and don't patronize me. But really, I don't have much of a type.

How do you stay so thin?
I eat three meals a day, snack in between each one and pay no mind to what other people think. It's better to stay happy and healthy, not thin. Love your curves, bones, flab and stretch marks, no one will love you quite like yourself.

I'm a journalism student and want to start my own blog to jump start my hopeful styling career. Advice?
Be patient! If you're serious about your career and growing your blog, then it's going to take some time and lots of loving. Don't get discouraged by the pace of others, do what you know is best. When you first start out you'll probably be a lost puppy but it just takes some time and experience to get a grasp on how to run a blog successfully. Even after a year, I'm still constantly learning and that's what you want to strife for, to always be learning. Good luck with everything!

How do you get your lipstick to look so perfect? Do you use primer or liner, etc.? What brands/colors do you stick to?
I use three brands; MAC, Rimmel and Cover Girl and never use a primer or liner. I usually apply a lip balm beforehand to avoid chapped lips and prefer light pinks and bright reds.

Why did you choose QQueen Of Hearts as your blog name?
Intense game of Crazy 8s. The double Q is because the domain was already taken when I was choosing a blog name, and I wanted to keep it consistent with the url.

There you have it, me in a nutshell.

Thanks to everyone for participating!

Featured Artist - Achraf Amiri

2010-10-29T00:21:00.003-04:00

There's a mystique to fashion that's awe-inspiring and alluring -- it has the ability to capture beauty as an art form. Often times art and fashion are representative of one another, and I have yet to find another artist that truly captures that love affair quite like Achraf Amiri. His interpretation of fashion is morbidly sensational, there's a quirkiness to his madness that you can't help but ignore.

Each theme is gruesome, intriguing and above all, it stands alone in a saturated field. This 22-year-old proclaims to be the "hidden son of the Adam's family," and was born and raised in Brussels, Belgium. Hidden son or no son at all, one things certain, Amiri is the type of artist to keep one eye on at all times. Be sure to read the interview below and head over to his personal blog afterward for more jaw-dropping illustrations.

When did you first realize that you were an artist?

Artist, not even now. For me to be an artist is to be a genius, and I actually don't feel myself as a genius. I am creative but still study the art for myself.

Could you tell us more about your work?

In the first place, I make those illustrations as self-therapy. But, after I made several drawings, I realized that they're communicative as a critic of all around me. Similar to how a writer writes everyday -- it's a discipline and self-education.

What is it that inspires your work?

I'm inspired a lot by what I call the "Superficial World." All about the actuality in the culture, media, POP music, lifestyle and fashion.

What artists have influenced you, and how?

I'm influenced a lot and I feel myself as a sponge. I'm particularly inspired by the symbolism and the gothic paintings of the Flemish Primitives but also by the contemporary art, as for example, Domenico Cordua.

What inspires you to create art and how do you keep motivated when things get tough in the studio?

All depend on my moods.

What advice would you give to an artist just starting out?

Be productive and never satisfied.

Is there a hidden meaning/message that you are trying to communicate in your work?

For me, my work is done. Afterward, it's the public that needs to react.

What has been your biggest accomplishment?

All have his difficulty of what I made till now. I try to be the most communicative in all of my illustrations and it must be very clear in my eyes.

What's the best advice you've ever received?

Fathers are the best! I always listen my papa.

If you weren't an artist, what would you be doing?

Sleeping all day -- my next hobby.

Be sure to visit Achraf Amiri

with love.
badley

Facebook Fan Page

2010-10-28T10:59:00.001-04:00

Okay, I've caved and created a Facebook Fan Page for QQueen Of Hearts. It's a little strange and awkward but after some serious consideration, it will be beneficial for the overall community. After commenting on a post not everyone revisits and it's harder for me to reply to questions. I'd also love to get to know each one of you better and I hope this can be the perfect hub for that. I will be providing updates on new posts, photo outtakes (anything that doesn't make it onto the blog), discussions and an area for you to suggest anything you'd like to see.

The Facebook Fan Page isn't a shrine to myself, instead a place to build relationships. I know, it sounds completely corny but I'd love to take things to the next level with each one of you. I've learned a lot about myself in the last year from this blog and the strangers that supported me along the way. So, if you'd like to join then I couldn't be happy, and if not, then that's fine by me. Lets continue to support one another and define ourselves one fashionable day at a time.

P.s TOMORROW is the LAST day to ask me ANYTHING.

So, what do you want to know?

10 Different Faces of Me - The Big Q&A

2010-10-22T10:33:00.002-04:00

Hi, when did 436 of you start following me?! I just want to thank each one of you for the endless love and encouragement, it means the world to me. I've been meaning to do a giant Q&A for a while now and figure this is a better time than any. So for the next week, closing on Oct. 29, you can ask me any question that's appropriate.

How it works
You can either send me an email at zoebadley@gmail.com, leave a comment below or tweet me your question @zoebadley. If you tweet me, please use the unique hash tag #BlogQuestion, just so I know it's pertaining to this post. Lets make this fun and keep it as PG as humanly possible. With that said, I'm excited to answer all of your questions!

Thanks to everyone for participating!

with love.

badley

P.s. I'm fully aware that I'm a huge goofball

I've got another confession to make, I'm your fool

2010-10-20T18:07:00.005-04:00

" Loneliness is the human condition. Cultivate it. The way it tunnels into you allows your soul room to grow. Never expect to outgrow loneliness. Never hope to find people who will understand you, someone to fill that space. An intelligent, sensitive person is the exception, the very great exception. If you expect to find people who will understand you, you will grow murderous with disappointment. The best you'll ever do is to understand yourself, know what it is that you want, and not let the cattle stand in your way."- Janet Fitch, White Oleander

Sometimes I forget how much this book affected my life. Jane Fitch's written words became the marrow in my bones and the honey on my tongue. I fell madly in love with White Oleander at a young age, and even though I didn't quite understand every thing at the time, I knew that I could feel each word that I read. Have you ever read a book that had such a profound affect on you? Share in the comment section, I'd love to have a conversation about it!

with love.

badley

The Bloody Beetroots at The Guvernment

2010-10-19T14:27:00.000-04:00

There are no words in the English Dictionary to accurately describe the Bloody Beetroots concert at The Guvernment nightclub in Toronto this past Sunday. I've actually tried for several hours and believe me, it's near impossible. I moshed for the first time in my life and there may or may not have been someone else's puke on my shoe; epic hardly touched the events of the night. So, since I'm unable to fully share my experience with words, I've turned to a more visual path. Unfortunately, even after taking an audio and video class in college, I still required half a bottle of wine and a good prayer to finally finish the video. It's jumpy, choppy and all over the place, which captures the essence of the night perfectly. I hope you guys enjoy and sorry about the quality of the video but it was my first go!

with love.

badley